(Verse 3 - Holla)
(Yo sometimes the greatest war you'll ever have to face...
is against yourself!)
Please for God's sake
Put that mother fucking phone down
Before we both go nuts
Know what... Grow up
We both know how this goes cuz
You overthink so much
Sit down don't touch
Stay still don't budge
So stubborn no wonder
No one can control us
Refuse to see me as I keep bleeding
But still have the audacity to ask me
Why it's so tough
Watch now as I hold up
My heart in my hands
I know that you don't love
Depressed in anxious disarray
With no ray of hope
I'm Desperate for the day
I finally find a way to cope
Face the smoke
Until the day I go
Until I make it home
I'm just trying to stay afloat
Pressured myself so long
I'm a diamond now
Perception of hell's so wrong
Now I'm climbing out
Analysis:
Setting the Stage: "Love and Violence" from "Legacy"
A Dialogue with My Inner Struggles...
– I set the stage with a profound reflection, initiating a conversation with my inner demons and challenges.
"Put that mother fucking phone down / Before we both go nuts"
– I kick off my verse with a personal call to action, reminding myself to disconnect from distractions and engage in genuine self-reflection. These words reflect my desire to escape the chaos of external influences, finding clarity within myself.
"Know what... Grow up / We both know how this goes cuz"
– I address my own journey of growth, urging myself to embrace maturity and rise above challenges. I acknowledge the pitfalls of overthinking, recognizing the pattern that often leads to mental distress.
"You overthink so much"
– This line captures the struggle to resist the temptation of overanalyzing situations, a battle I face within myself.
"Sit down don't touch / Stay still don't budge"
– I advocate for finding stability amidst internal chaos, seeking solace in stillness.
"So stubborn no wonder / No one can control us"
– These words acknowledge my defiance against conforming to societal norms, promoting the idea of staying true to myself. I assert that I have the power to control my own actions and decisions.
"Refuse to see me as I keep bleeding"
– I open up about my silent pain, revealing the struggle of concealing emotional wounds from the world.
"But still have the audacity to ask me why it's so tough"
"But still have the audacity to ask me why it's so tough"
- This is where I confront the inner conflict, where I question myself despite the immense emotional weight I'm carrying.
"Watch now as I hold up / My heart in my hands / I know that you don't love"
"Watch now as I hold up / My heart in my hands / I know that you don't love"
- I visualize myself holding my heart, symbolizing my readiness to confront my emotions head-on and deal with the pain. I acknowledge a lack of self-love or self-worth, recognizing the need for inner healing.
"Depressed in anxious disarray / With no ray of hope / I'm Desperate for the day / I finally find a way to cope"
- These lines paint a picture of emotional turmoil, capturing feelings of depression and anxiety that I, like many, can relate to. I express my longing for a brighter future, a day when I can discover effective coping strategies for my struggles.
"Face the smoke / Until the day I go / Until I make it home / I'm just trying to stay afloat"
- These lines show my determination to confront challenges, even when they seem overwhelming, until I reach a place of peace. I share my resilience, my ongoing effort to keep my head above water in the midst of life's storms.
"Pressured myself so long / I'm a diamond now / Perception of hell's so wrong / Now I'm climbing out"
- I admit to the self-imposed pressure I've carried, a significant step toward self-awareness. In this moment, I realize my strength and challenge the negative perceptions I held about myself. This represents hope, growth, and the start of a positive journey out of the darkness.
Summary
In summary, this verse in "Love & Violence" is a heartfelt conversation with myself, filled with vulnerability and self-reflection. It's a raw, relatable message of personal growth and resilience, a reminder that I have the inner strength to overcome my battles.